And it sucks.
I didn't get totally dissed by D but I may as well have. He's "not looking for a relationship right now" which we all know is code for "He's just not that into me". But what pisses me off is that he's been all about acting like he was or could have been. And what pisses me off even more is that I fell for it. I admit, I probably read way more into it all than I should have but he needs to lay off the mixed signals. Quit choosing to ride in my car, go with someone else. Quit getting me on the dance floor and telling me that you like dancing slower with me. Quit playing with my hair. Quit hugging me when I least expect it. Quit being so charmy and cute because you make it very difficult to be "just friends".
I swear I just turned 35 but I feel like a ridiculous teenager and I hate it. So right now, for the next few days, I'm gonna be bummed out and depressed but after that? I'm over it. Eventually, he will realize what he's missing out on and it may very well be too late.